That I drop down into this formless, dull space, that I actually stand on my own two feet — for here, in composition, I have absolutely no qualms, no questions, about what occurs in the end.  There is no thought to please, no external pressure of any kind.  Here is the only place I can go where I am free from the anxieties and weaknesses of relying, or expecting anything; the fullness of my own greater Self is all.  To stay within this realm of creative work and thought is the only necessity and any irritations arise from not doing so.